Intrinsic Wanderlust

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Yesterday, she was artificially paralyzed and placed into a medicinal coma. I watched as the surgeon removed her diseased organ with sophisticated chopsticks. She left my care early this morning.

Just now, he rose from the dead thanks to a highly skilled, calm and cooperative code team. I watched as his heart began to beat again. I witnessed the color of his skin change as the oxygen molecules once again perfused into his tissues.


I haven’t had this much fun since my first autopsy.

The adrenaline rush was comparable to earning my marks(wo)man medal in the military with a 9mm.

I felt challenged and alive for the first time since starting nursing school.

My calling is found.

I have spent my morning with intermittent streams of tears running down my face, considering the ethics of euthanasia. There is no owners manual for a geriatric dog whose larynx is slowly paralyzing.

Her eyes showed weakness today for the first time, like she was telling me she can’t suffer through a fit too many more times. “Help me, best friend.”

Nobody warns you what life is like when you hoard syringes full of sedatives in case her tongue turns blue and she won’t calm down.

Or the thoughts of finding her flattened on the hardwood floor with white foamy vomit seeping from her mouth.

Oddly enough, in a world where taxidermy is once again fashionable by mainstream standards, dead human bodies are still taboo.

The dead deer hanging on your wall is a trophy, but I am still considered weird for processing amputated legs and necrotic colons at work.

Death and gore are accepted as novelty, but shunned as reality.

I’ve had the word EVIL tattooed on my wrist for 7 years. 

It still makes me smile. 


okay guys srs question

Forensic pathology or Mortuary science? Why and why not? :> I’d really love to hear why you chose either, or why you didn’t.

I chose mortuary science after having studied forensics and criminology at a university. I didn’t want to necessarily be involved with the legal and criminal aspects of death; I just wanted to prepare bodies. I also didn’t want to pursue medical school, which is a huge life/financial/time commitment. 

I chose mortuary school at a community college because I could pay out of pocket for school rather than going into debt, and because I could pursue a career within two years. 

I served my practicum with a County Coroner and trade embalmer, so I had training in embalming and funerary restoration, as well as autopsy and organ procurement procedures. It was the best of both worlds. 

Even with a mortuary science (or even general biology) degree, you are able to get a job in a hospital morgue as a technician. You could also get a job at an organ bank (especially if you are open to travel). My little mortuary science degree is quite multifaceted, despite it seeming to pigeonhole me into one career field. 

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